Sabado, Agosto 27, 2011

My Path


I can't remember when I started to get interested in aviation. I just found myself having a strange feeling whenever I see an aircraft. A mixture of excitement, curiousness and other feelings that I can't explain fills me while imagining myself riding this huge human-creation which makes it possible to bring me to the clouds. But riding on it and bringing me up to the highest peak that my eyes can reach is not the only thing that I really like, but also allowing me to see the beauty and the other side of the world.
Maybe my interest to travel in different places (or should I say the whole world?) led me to be fascinated in the world of aviation. I took up tourism in an aeronautical school and whenever someone knew about it, he/she will immediately thinks that I want to be a flight attendant. It offers a high salary and I can get to travel while wearing a beautiful uniform, but that's not the job that I exactly want and that's not the reason why I took up my chosen course. There are so many things that I want to do in my life. I want to enjoy every moment of it. I want to have a job which allows me to do what I love. There were times that I want to be a tour guide because I always want to talk, talk, and talk... haha. In this way, I get to educate people and help them appreciate something in a different way, I mean, not being inside the classroom doing what a typical teacher do. I also wanted to work abroad, particularly in a hotel or any tourism-related establishment, 'just wanted to experience how it feels like being in a place having an entirely different culture than I used to have. Another thing that I want to do but the least I can explain why is establishing a career inside the airport. A few months from now, I can see myself in the check-in counter or in the boarding gate greeting the passengers and wishing them to have a safe flight. But it didn't stop just right there, working on shifting hours, forgetting about national holidays and having only one rest day per week are just some of the struggles that I have to go through and there's nothing I can do... GINUSTO KO TO EH!... haha.
I'm looking forward to learn a lot of things within the two years that I'll spend in whichever airline that I will be assigned, 'hope this experience will lead me to the success in the field of aviation. I'm not sure how it will exactly bring me to different places that I'm dreaming of but at least I will become a part of someone's journey from one point to another side of the world, who maybe shares the same interest with me to explore the whole world. :)

We love our bread, we love our butter, but most of all, WE LOVE EACH OTHER

For most of us, Highschool life is the happiest and most unforgettable phase of a student life. But for me, it's college. Maybe because I wasn't allowed that much to go out with my friends during highschool days. But it doesn't mean that I didn't have friends back then, but just a few of them still have a communication with me until now.
Entering college is a huge adjustment for me because it's entirely a different environment and also given the fact that PATTS is quite a long drive from where I live which is in Tanza, Cavite. I didn't know anyone from the class and even in the whole campus. For a few months, I developed friendship with just a few of my classmates but it didn't last long because some of them have to stop and move to the province, and I admit that I just didn't stand the attitude of others. haha.
Most of our instructors required a sitting arrangement where we have to sit alphabetically, so most of the time, I have to sit next to Mheng, Mona, and Rakel- they were already friends since the first day of class. They're also friends with Judith who sit next to my friends Jelai and Chaz. All of us became friends by the end of the second semester... where we started to hang out, laugh and talk about crazy things, eat and went home together.
The first semester of our second year in PATTS came, hindi na kame mapag-hiwalay, hindi na maubos ang kwentuhan at tawanan. That time, uso ung mga "EMO", me and jelai always made fun of these people and call them "EMOYZ" instead of "Emo". Our friends find it really funny whenever they hear this term from us, until we call ourselves "emoy" or "emoyz" which means anti-emo because obviously, we're opposite of emo. haha... We even gave ourselves with this "berry" names. Like for me, it's "raspberry", "bloodberry" for judith, "blackberry" for mheng, "strawberry" for mona, "dewberry" for jelai, "cranberry" for rakel, and "blueberry" for chaz. (vain, aren't we?) haha
We're always together during group reports and class activities. One of the most unforgettable activities is in the Culinary subject, we get to shop for ingredients and cook together which is so fun even for me who doesn't really like cooking. haha...
We have this different weird personalities which leads us to such a quite "agaw-eksena" trip, like wearing colorful skinny jeans together, using backpacks in school, taking pictures out of nowhere at ang pumasok sa school ng pare-parehong may kulay ang buhok! hahaha
Like what I've said earlier, we have different personalities, I am talkative, mheng is serious and sensitive,rakel has this strong personality and weird ideas, mona is the sweet one, jelai is artistic, chaz is pa-demure... haha, and judith is moody... then came ces who entered our group just a few months after we are formed which is the easy-go-lucky one. Though we have this differences, we still have this common denominator which made us stick together, but I can't figure what it is. haha
Since we have this different personalities, misunderstandings, tampuhan and fights will never be avoided. This is due of too much insensitivity, jealousy, pride and impatience of all of us. well, I don't wanna go back to those times. But the good thing about it is, it strengthen our friendship.
As time goes by, we still continue to make memories with each other. I will never forget our free ambush BENCH-Fix make over which stole our classmates' attention because of our new hairstyles and striking hair colors, I can still remember Ms. Ibraham (now Mrs Desolo) calling us "Chocolate-girls" for our hair. haha. Hanging around SM Sucat and singing our heart out inside the videoke rooms of Quantum/Tom's world are just some of our favorite bonding moments. Even in our tour (cebu,bohol, palawan),speech choir, kulitan during P.E subject, foundation day...lahat yan, may pictures kame, proof that we seize every moment of our college life. We even have our friendster account... cute! haha


Sundang, PD (panty dropper), chris brown (jacket)... I can't help myself but laugh whenever I remember this terms that only us can understand, Especially the PD, we even spent hours sitting along the bridge and wait for those "PD" guys... haha.
Being together in school all day seems not enough for us na kahit we're on our way pa lang pauwi eh, magkaka-text na kagad kame and we have this "tag" pa kapag nag-ggm ah...
There comes a time that we have to separate, I mean, some of us have to go to other sections with different schedules due to unavoidable circumstances, even jelai have to stop from studying due to financial reasons. But that didn't end our friendship, we may not see each other as often as we could but we tried to have time to be together as long as we can like birthday celebrations. Speaking of birthdays, we think of different gimmiks to surprise someone on her special day. Since my birthday is on the month of April, it is impossible for them to come over to my place to celebrate with me, but they surprised me with a bouquet of red roses on June (2 months late) and that's one of the most special gifts I have ever receive in my life.



Ate Malou's green house is witness to our birthday celebrations with tapsilog/bangsilog as the blowout and biscuits with choco-choco and nips at the top as a cake. haha. Even our exchange gift for Christmas is being held here. Going back to birthdays, Judth's 18th Birthday at Island Cove is the one I will never forget, it turned "Emoy Girls" into "WONDERGIRLS"... I want nobody nobody but you! haha... nuff said.
I don't know if "tradition" or "habit" is the right term for the quite unusual things that we do, like the prayer that we shouldn't forget before eating which is, "we love our bread, we love our butter, but most of all, we love each other" and the touching-on-the forehead- thing before living... basta, EMOYZ lang ang may ganyan! haha
We have colorful lovelife (kasi makakate) haha... everyone's witness to each other's kilig moments and heartaches. They gave me a warm hug during my first heartbreak, helped me move on, and bring myself back.


Though we didn't perform together as a group for our salesblitz, didn't join the same tourguiding activity, didn't get to watch each others defense for the case study/thesis, we still celebrate together as if we were groupmates.
In our senior year, Esang, (who's witty and fun to be with) became close to emoyz and eventually became one of us. She is one of my closest friends aside from Emoys since second year and also my roommate when I decided to live in a boarding house in fourth year. Living away from my family gave me a lot of freedom to do whatever I want. This is where I started partying and joining drinking sessions. We're young, we love to have fun, and partying at Sherwood's D'zone, Autoville and Padi's Point is a must! haha.
Being in the final year of a student life, we always thought of seizing every moment that we're together. This gave birth to our 2days Batangas getaway, Gimmik at star city, and hotair balloon fiesta trip. We didn't find any reasons to celebrate just to be together and have a drink, this became more often on the latter part of the final semester of our college life.
Time flies so fast that "Graduation Day" came in just like a snap. I don't know how to explain the happiness that I felt while reaching the stage, while wearing the graduation gown and hearing "congratulations" all over the PICC. But all I know is that, it is not just pure Happiness that I felt, there's also a mixture of excitement and nervousness inside of me, not knowing what's waiting for me in stepping into the real world, actually I don't know if I'm ready or not. It's hard to say goodbye to the student life, that's why I can't help but feel sad, knowing that everything will not be the same again, no more quizzes, assignments, projects, etc. (though I always complain about it) and the hardest part of it? No more bonding moments inside the campus while wearing our uniform. But you know what? I'm looking forward to bond outside wearing our uniform from the respective airlines that we're working for.


Everytime I reminisce our moments together since the time that we met each other until we graduated, it's quite a long journey pero nakakabitin pa rin. College life is another chapter of our lives that has been closed but will never be forgotten., and these girls who've been a huge part of this chapter will always be welcome in the next chapters of my life. We can never be college students again (unless we choose to study again... haha) but one thing's for sure, we can still continue the friendship (or shuld I say, SISTERHOOD?) that we had. I couldn't thank them enough for the moments that we shared together and for making my college life a wonderful one.We may not get to see and talk to each other that much, we may meet new friends, and gain new experiences with others but we know that the friendship we had will always be there, 'COZ EMOYZ WILL ALWAYS BE EMOYZ... So, if you ask me who gave meaning to my college life, well, they are these 8 wonderful girls who saw how I messed up, knew how to destroy me but didn't tried to, taught me a lot of things which I can never find in my cattleya notes nor in my photocopied handouts (haha) and accepted me for who I am.
And oh, did I mention that I LOVE this bitches!? peace! lol
I LOVE MY BREAD, I LOVE MY BUTTER BUT MOST OF ALL, I LOVE EMOYZ! :-*

I'm getting used to it...

I mean not depending to someone to be happy. Yeah, it's true, "happiness is a choice" and everything in our life comes with an option, but that's one of the hardest things in life-to make a choice 'coz no one knows how it will end up, all we have to do is to stand up for it, whatever it may be.
In just a few days, new life is already waiting for me...'expecting new experiences, learnings and even struggles.I'm hoping that my upcoming training as a PSA can help me to fully get-over him. I've already made my choice- this is to let him go and try to be just his friend (but I know even just being friends wouldn't work). Things like being busy and having new friends and colleagues can help me forget my feelings for him. I don't know how I came up with this decision, I just wake up one morning and told myself that I have to move on and get-over him. I'm looking forward to laugh at myself one day, remembering what was me when I was still in-love with him. I know I deserve someone better, someone who treats me as a PRIORITY, not an OPTION... I admit, I'm getting impatient to wait for this man to come over but I'll make sure that this man is worth the wait.
Is it true that if a guy makes you laugh hard, then he can also make you cry that hard too. As far as I know, I haven't shed a tear for him yet, though he literally makes my tummy ache because of his jokes. Maybe I'm less "iyakin" now compared in the past, or maybe he didn't hurt me that much that I can still handle the pain.
I guess we're better of this way... Away from complications, away from sin. I've done my choice and no one knows how it will end up. No matter how it will turn out, I'll stand for it.