Call me SELFISH but I can't be happy for him

It's official.. Sila na! Well I knew that's gonna happen and I'm ready for it, that's why I'm not shocked. Though I saw it coming, it's still painful for me... I can't be happy for him. But life goes on, everything that happened between the two of us will just remain as a memory that I'm wishing to be easily forgotten later on.
I don't know If I still consider him as my "BEST FRIEND" because it seems like he don't consider me as that. And right now, we don't act as best friends, we barely talk to each other.

I don't want to confront him about this matter,because he might say that I am being "demanding" just like the last time that I talked to him about this. I don't want to be the first to approach or to start the conversation over the chat maybe because of too much pride, and if he really wants to talk to me, he'll be the one who's gonna approach right? Well, I shouldn't expect too much from him, specially now that they're already official.
I can't describe what I felt when he apologized to me the day after I received the news. I'm a little shaky and my heart beat fast. He's sorry for not telling me right away , at first I don't know how to react and I just said that it was okay. That's one thing that I'm starting to hate myself, which is pretending that everything's okay even if it's not. After his apology we just had a short casual conversation. He said that I always gave him courage, but that didn't made me feel better.
They say that if you really love someone, you'll be happy to see him happy even if he's with another girl. yeah, I'm glad to know that he's happy, but knowing that he's happy with another girl? well that's a different story.

Hey... I'm going there! Wanna come with me?

What's the sense of being a tourism graduate if I don't get to personally witness and experience the beauty of the places that we get to tackle inside the classroom back when I was still a student? haha...

Without thinking the expenses, how I'm gonna get to these places, whom I'm going to be with and when I'm gonna get there... all I know is I'm getting there (without forgetting the camera!) haha... yeah, that's the spirit!
note: this is just around the country... :)





1. BATANES
Yeah, it's typhoon's fave spot but it can't stop me to visit and see

the Bahay na bato and the light house. I'll never miss the chance to buy in the honesty store, experience the beautiful beach and meet the Ivatans.







2.BANAUE RICE TERRACES
I've always seen it's picture in my elementary textbooks,

since then, I've always imagining what it looks like in person. haha... and I'm kind'a curious of Ifugaos and their culture.







3. BAGUIO

It's the Summer capital, so why not include on my list? haha
My baguio tour for two days with my mom and brother when I was 7 years old was my first and last experience there so I can't remember the beauty of this place.
I wanna witness the PANAGBENGA festival, experience the horseback riding,stroll around the Burnham Park, shop at Ukay-ukays and harvest the strawberries while it's freezing cold!




4.BORACAY
this island might be congested but you can't blame the tourists, it's just so irresistible!the perfect place to wear your bikini!

'can't wait to build a sand castle,have a henna tattoo and a tan line, and thinking about the beach party excites me more! Boracay experience will not be complete without the banana boat ride and island hoping right?



5. PUERTO GALLERA

Another beach! It's just a short drive from Manila... I don't know how to swim, and I'm kind'a scared of water...'can't understand why love beaches! haha






6. BOHOL
I've been here, and I promised to myself to comeback here.

My Loboc River experience is so unforgettable, the cute tarsiers and the Chocolate hills are just some of the reasons why this place different from the others. Panglao Island is the one I should never miss.




7. ILOCOS
I wanna comeback here, eat their very own Longganisa once again, try the taste of Bagnet and their Empanada,

come closer to the windmills than what I did before, spend more time in Pagudpod beach, visit the Marcos properties and the Old churches such as the famous Paoay church, explore again and comeback to the Spanish era through the Crisologo Street.







8. PAGSANJAN FALLS
Breath taking scenery isn't it? So relaxing...'wanna experience the very challenging boat ride in going there!

9. BICOL
Bicol means Mt. Mayon, I shouldn't miss a photograph with its perfect cone shape and the Cagsawa ruins behind me.

How about wake boarding at Cam Sur? oh well, it a MUST! hahaha... Caramoan Island? Itinerary is not complete without a visit to this paradise.









10. PALAWAN
Who'll ever think of not coming back after being here? The underground river made my first Palawan tour so special, there are so many tourist spots that we didn't able to visit and that made us so "Bitin"... Coron, El Nido and Amanpulo, you're my next stop!

11.HUNDRED ISLANDS

Well, what else but Island hopping!I just wanna prove if that is really a hundred! hahaha... I wanna feed my eyes with this God given gift.


12. DAVAO
I wanna buy tons of Durian Candy... haha. Let me decide if I go mountaineering when I see the Mt. Apo.

Checking-in in at least 1 of the resorts shouldn't be missed! and oh, white-water-rafting sounds fun and adventure isn't it? Well, that's my purpose, to have fun and feel the adventure! haha










13. QUEZON
Let's join the very colorful Pahiyas Festival, visit the pilgrimages like the "kamay ni Hesus", hit the beach and go mud-sliding at Caliraya!

what's up with my new locks!?

I can't remember the last time I went to the salon and get a haircut but I always have plans of either dying or getting my hair curled. I don't know why but I didn't get any of those. haha... Until I notice that my hair is getting dry  and damage so I thought getting a hotoil can save my hair from it. I also wanted a new hairstyle but I don't know which one fits me. I have a round shape face that I think is very hard to choose a hairstyle that will fit to it. I used to have this layered hair for such a long time and now, I want to try something new and I thought having a new look can give me a new job and a lovelife.hahaha... One time I'm watching showtime and there is this girl from madlang people who did a sample, and  her hairstyle caught my attention and that made me decide to have that haircut. hahaha...

So last rainy saturday, I went to salon and had a hotoil and got my hair cut. the hairstylist didn't actually got the perfect look that I wanted and my bangs is too short  but it's okay. I will surely miss my long hair and I don't have any choice but to enjoy my new hair!

Senseless Stuff

I’m bored. 2 months of staying here in the house, being a BUM, with no one to talk to, who’ll ever think that’s not boring? yeah, I have this TV and computer in front of me all day but nothing beats with hanging out with my friends and having endless talk about senseless stuffs. that’s what I really miss, chatting with my friends from the hottest trends, to our funny moments , to endless sentiments, and up to our dreams… stuff like that, as in anything under the sun. I really enjoy talking about everything, I mean having a long conversation with someone… so being trapped alone in our house is such a huge “challenge” (if that’s the right term for it… hehe) for me. this made me decide to have a blog and write there everything I want without boundaries, I’m free to write whatever I want. In this way, I may not express my stories, thoughts, and sentiments verbally and personally like what I’ve always wanted but at least I got the chance to let it all out. the stuffs that I’m gonna write on this page are not that interesting and relevant to other people’s lives and so to the whole country. haha. I’m telling you, my post will not lessen the traffic in Edsa, it couldn’t stop the oil price hike, or even stop the corruption. haha